I am writing this post to remind myself of this time when I have had - Time. I woke up Monday morning feeling exhausted, crampy, achey, painful - basically there wasn't really a part of me that didn't hurt. It was 4:30am and I couldn't go back to sleep. After thinking for the next 3 hours, I wrote a letter to my bosses at work and my work colleagues explaining I was starting my maternity leave a little early. The sense of anxiety about doing this has gradually decreased over the last 48 hours, especially after so many positive emails from staff and friends wishing me well.
Feel a bit 'role-less' at the moment as I'm not working and I am not even looking after Felicity full time. We've already paid for all her childcare for May. Makes me appreciate how much of my time is owned by my job! I guess it's just as well that I do have so much more time as I'm walking and doing things so much more slowly! I ran some errands yesterday morning while Felicity was at nursery (before coming home and having a good rest in the afternoon, I hasten to add!) and it was amazing to think: 'woah, I could do this next, or I could do this next, or I could go there....' Shopping with a baby/toddler is limits your time and focuses you! It was also weird as I didn't have to be anywhere at any given time - I kept catching myself looking at my watch thinking I must have forgotten something.
I know this is a golden season that will probably not be repeated for another 10+ years - at least.
So, I have had everyone telling me not to try to do too much - you need to rest (and I do) - don't feel guilty - just rest.
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Cute things F has said -
Monday I picked her up from nursery. She was across the playground in the playhouse and she screamed when she saw me and came running. 'I was waiting for you!!' And later in the car (because Simon had told me how excited she had been to be at nursery and seeing her friends in the morning) I said something like, 'I'm glad you were excited to be at nursery today.' and she answered back 'I was excited to see YOU.' Awww...melt my heart.
Tuesday she started a lot of rhyming words - 'Mommy-bommy mommy-bommy' she was chanting when we woke up.
'Why are you calling me mommy-bommy?'
'Because I LUV you very much!'
awwww.....
I bought her a backpack that has reins on it for us to use when I'm on my crutches out of the house. It has a picture of a Mommy and baby turtle on it. She saw it on the backseat of the car, gasped, and said - 'THAnk you for my backpack, mommy!' And she's been pretending she's a 'tortoise' and the backpack is her shell. She told me this morning when I was dressing her that I was the 'mommy-tortoise.'
Who needs reality TV?
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ReplyDeleteAw! F is so sweet - I love listening to her talk on Skype. All those imaginative and creative thoughts from her lovely little self! Seriously - get some rest today and don't worry about the rest of it. The most important thing that baby (and F) need are a rested mom! Everything else can wait.
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